First, I wanted to mention two errors in my last post. First, I was telling my grandma how amazed people were at her doing Jazzercise for 50 years and she said she's only been doing it for 30 (it's only been around for 30 years), but she has been exercising for 50, she walks as well! Second, the juice I get at my Whole Foods is not fresh pressed, it's just juiced in a regular juicer. Someone had asked and I emailed my Whole Foods to find out. I also asked them if they could make more green juices and they said they had been thinking the same thing! Whoohoo!Okay on to business, I am going to try to post a non-food related post once a week. Probably when I don't have any food to post! :) I promise food on Friday!
Over the weekend I had a minor set back. Like I mentioned, I had a party to attend (with my family). I am not very photogenic and really don't like getting my picture taken (especially now with the weight gain). Well, my lovely sister took some pictures and posted them for people to see. When I saw how bad I looked I broke down and couldn't stop crying. All Sunday I felt sick and upset over this. She kindly removed SOME of them and apologized (she really felt bad). But I couldn't help feeling so depressed over it. The pictures really opened my eyes and let me see how much weight I have put on. Almost like a wake up call.
On Saturday, I was so upset that I had to be around my family that I didn't say my
affirmations all day because I didn't feel "worthy"..on Sunday my little breakdown was related to this (and a little PMS). When I told my doctor about this he told me that I probably wasn't "breathing." Now that I think about it, I wasn't. I was carrying so much stress and tension due the fact that I had to be around my family that I forgot to relax and breath. When he adjusted my spine I felt the tension disappear. I couldn't believe how tight I was feeling over this.
This upcoming weekend I have to go to a family reunion (I know, can I get a break?). This time I am going to remind myself to breath and remember to say my affirmations. This will also prevent me from overeating (which I tend to do in stressful situations). I also have to remind myself that it's not worth getting sick over.
I am going to work hard on this and hopefully get through Sunday. I will have to do this every time I am with them and hopefully it will become natural. Wish me luck!
Let me know what you think about my new idea of a personal post once a week (or less)?
Thanks for reading!
11 comments:
First off - because you are not telling yourself - You are such a beautiful woman inside and out. The days where you don't feel like saying your positive affirmations are the ones you need them most.
I love the idea of a non-food post once a week! I think it keeps things interesting and you have a lot of great things to say and share (as much as I love to read about your raw eats)
Good luck with the family reunion this weekend <3 xo
Hi Lauren, I think the idea of a non-food post is just fine [looking forward to those posts]. Please be loving to yourself and everything else will fall into place. :-)
LOL at Gram who's only been doing Jazzercise for 30 years!
Breathing. Who knew it was so important? :D
One of the things I began to notice when I set the intention to change my relationship to food and become more mindful when eating, is that I spent waaaaaaaaay too much time projecting into the future. Because I was rarely in the present moment, I was also rarely breathing. I know, that sounds ludicrous... How can you be alive and not breathe? But, I'm telling you, it's the honest to God's truth. I used to hold my breath, a lot, or I'd take very shallow breaths.
It's quite astounding what we store in our bodies when we aren't breathing. It's the whole FLOW thing — out with the old, in with the new. Ya gotta breathe, chica.
In answer to your query: I think non-food-related posts are lovely. Post away!
Will surround you in Light and Love this weekend as you embark on your family reunion.
You are beautiful and loved beyond measure.
My aunt has crohn's and she has been going through some of the same struggles you mention in this post. I've been trying to get her to switch to a vegan diet...we'll see.
sweetie - i hate to hear you were so upset of this that it threw you off track. if it is helping YOU, then i love your personal posts. of course, you'll probably get a lot of 'how-to-fix-it' comments - including from me. :)
regardless of how heavy or skinny you see yourself, that isn't what you are offering to the world. you are offering wonderful insight, courage, humour, beauty and everything else that comes with being lauren. :)
I am sure you are absolutely beautiful no matter how much weight you are carrying!! I wish you some confidence and luck with your family = )) !! You are really figuring yourself out and it seems like you will resolve many issues soon !
I love the idea of a personal weekly post - after all its YOUR blog, so of course you should include yourself in it =)
I really hope you start feeling better soon and stop beating urself up - I know how you must feel, I haven't had ANY pictures taken recently due to all my weight gain from teh prednisone, I simply just refuse - and my family has eventually gotten used to it.
i’m not photogenic or a fan of having my picture taken either, Lauren – i hear ya on that one. i’m so sorry that you got so upset! hugs to you, Lauren! girl, PMS always gets me and makes matters so much worse! i’m sorry you were so upset you didn’t say your affirmations – but i can see how being that stressed out would have your mind elsewhere. i too overeat when i’m stressed, and it starts a nasty cycle. i gain weight because i’ve been overeating, then i get upset because i’ve gained weight so i overeat some more. it’s horrible! but i know you’ll pull through, and working on breathing and those affirmations will get you through, Lauren! i’m working on breaking my cycle, and i’m thinking of you and hoping you get through Sunday with your head held high and many happyfaces!
I sure get the whole thing about not breathing around your family. After a bit..I have to leave. Too stressful. Love your little pug btw. I lost mine two weeks ago...haven't even started to recover. Working with pug rescue right now...xo
Susan
(Rawmazing)
I can relate first hand to the way you were feeling. Having a digestive disorder can make the whole weight issue so much worse. I myself have a really hard time telling when I am actually hungry because its hard to tell the pain from the hunger. But its so important to not only think about what is going to into your body but also what you are thinking. Think of your thoughts as food the positive thoughts will make your body stronger and it will actually be able to work properly.
I love you!
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